Finding Purpose in Pain

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When people ask me what it’s like to have chronic pain, I often describe it as being like having a huge, flashing neon sign in your brain with the word PAIN on it. The sign is so big, so glaring, so alarming in how it is flashing that it is almost impossible to focus on anything else. No matter which road I take in the labyrinth of my mind, the pain is still there, flashing away and taking up almost all my brain power. The thing is, pain literally is a warning sign. It’s the way our body communicates danger, the way it lets the brain know there is something wrong. Pain is a signal that tissue has been damaged, and that we must take immediate action to prevent further damage. For example, the sharp sensation of burning tells us to move our hand away from a hot stove. Our body and brain wants us to be unable to ignore pain because it could mean life or death.

But what happens when there is no hot stove to pull away from? What happens when pain signals are screaming at us to take action but there is no clear action to take? Read More


My Plan to Heal Endo Naturally

IMG_2596Once you are on the other side of laparoscopic surgery (or perhaps even before then), two things quickly become apparent: 1) endo usually grows back 2) there is no conclusive, scientifically proven way to stop it. Most doctors recommend immediately going on (or continuing) hormonal birth control to attempt to suppress the endo from growing back too rapidly. From what I can gather after a tonne of research and talking to a lot of women, with endo there are no guarantees, with or without birth control. Personally, I have not had positive experiences on birth control (from endless bleeding to constant vomiting to depression). So after a lot of research and a lot of soul searching, I made the decision not to take it. No judgement for anyone that chooses that path, it just isn’t right for me – at least not right now. However, I knew if I wasn’t going down that path, I had to take other big actions, so I have committed myself to a natural alternative protocol. Read More