You Can’t Rush Your Healing (And Other Lessons From Chronic Illness)

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you can’t rush your healing
darkness has its teachings
love is never leaving
you can’t rush your healing

You Can’t Rush Your Healing, Trevor Hall

I have always believed that things happen for a reason. Actually, I’m even more “woo-woo” than that – I believe our souls choose to have certain human experiences in this life in order to grow and evolve. (Even if it’s not true, it gives me so much peace and allows me to let others have their own journey, so I am happy to keep believing!) But I have to be honest and say during this illness there have been times when this belief wavered. I tried and tried to find the “lesson”, the reason for me being sick and in pain. I thought that once I found the lesson, I would get better. This resulted in me getting more and more frustrated when I couldn’t figure it out and my symptoms continued to worsen. But I have since realised that the lessons actually don’t come from resisting, fighting or beating this illness – the truest, deepest lessons have come from accepting the pain, accepting the illness and flowing with it. As Trevor Hall says, darkness has it’s teachings. Read More


How to Prepare for Laparoscopic Surgery

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I’m a big researcher. I love nothing more than disappearing down an information rabbit hole on a particular subject I’m interested in. So, when it became apparent I would need to have laparoscopic surgery for suspected endometriosis (you can read the full story here), I immediately began to research “what to take to hospital for endo surgery” and “how to recover after a laparoscopy”. I was scared, yes, but after four months of constant pain I was more than ready to get some answers (and hopefully some relief). And after working through my fears during a session with an Emotional Freedom Technique facilitator I actually felt excited for the surgery. It sounds crazy but having never been a patient in hospital before, it kind of felt like an adventure to see the ‘behind the scenes’ and feel that I was taking a huge step towards the possibility of a healthy, vibrant future. Read More


Inspiring Sources of Endo Info

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I read recently that endometriosis is as common as diabetes or asthma. I don’t know about you, but I learned about diabetes and asthma in primary school. Right around the time I learned about periods. Yet like most people, I had never even heard of endometriosis. That is, until I began researching my own mystery symptoms and started to suspect that I might actually have it. Whatever the heck it was. And if you’re anything like me, once you are diagnosed, things only become more confusing. No one knows the cause. No one knows the cure. No two endo situations are alike, but the prognosis generally seems pretty negative. So what’s a girl to do when information overwhelm sets in and it feels like there’s not a single clear answer to be found? Read More