You Can’t Rush Your Healing (And Other Lessons From Chronic Illness)

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you can’t rush your healing

You Can’t Rush Your Healing, Trevor Hall

I have always believed that things happen for a reason. Actually, I’m even more “woo-woo” than that – I believe our souls choose to have certain human experiences in this life in order to grow and evolve. (Even if it’s not true, it gives me so much peace and allows me to let others have their own journey, so I am happy to keep believing!) But I have to be honest and say during this illness there have been times when this belief wavered. I tried and tried to find the “lesson”, the reason for me being sick and in pain. I thought that once I found the lesson, I would get better. This resulted in me getting more and more frustrated when I couldn’t figure it out and my symptoms continued to worsen. But I have since realised that the lessons actually don’t come from resisting, fighting or beating this illness – the truest, deepest lessons have come from accepting the pain, accepting the illness and flowing with it. As Trevor Hall says, darkness has it’s teachings. Read More


How to Prepare for Laparoscopic Surgery

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I’m a big researcher. I love nothing more than disappearing down an information rabbit hole on a particular subject I’m interested in. So, when it became apparent I would need to have laparoscopic surgery for suspected endometriosis (you can read the full story here), I immediately began to research “what to take to hospital for endo surgery” and “how to recover after a laparoscopy”. I was scared, yes, but after four months of constant pain I was more than ready to get some answers (and hopefully some relief). And after working through my fears during a session with an Emotional Freedom Technique facilitator I actually felt excited for the surgery. It sounds crazy but having never been a patient in hospital before, it kind of felt like an adventure to see the ‘behind the scenes’ and feel that I was taking a huge step towards the possibility of a healthy, vibrant future. Read More


My Endo-Healing Morning Routine

Today marks six weeks since my laparoscopic surgery and in a magical turn of events, over the last few days I have begun to experience pain-free mornings for the first time in about six months! When I do experience pain later in the day I have often been able to get by with just paracetamol or ibuprofen, no heavy pain-killers. This has been quite surreal and amazing and such great motivation to keep going with my natural healing regime. So, I thought I would share the exact details of what I do each morning… Read More


My Endo Story

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I’ve had so much resistance to sharing my personal endo story publicly. Yes, it feels vulnerable and raw. But mostly, it feels sort of self-indulgent. I mean, I feel my story is not really all that interesting, and it’s definitely not unique! However, I do have a sense of personal responsibility to share my experiences. Keeping endo shrouded in shadows and secrecy only allows us, and so many other women, to continue suffering in silence. If we begin talking about having endo as openly as we would talk about having a broken leg or the flu, then we will immediately feel less alone and perhaps one day soon we will have better treatment options or even a cure.

So, here goes… Read More


You Are Loveable, Even If You Are Sick

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Note to self (and anyone else who needs to hear it)…

You are loveable, even if you are sick.

You are worthy, even if you cannot give as much as you receive.

You are kind, even if you say “no” more than you say “yes”.

You are loving, even if you have to cancel plans to stay in bed.

You are smart, even if your brain feels foggy and forgetful. Read More


Inspiring Sources of Endo Info

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I read recently that endometriosis is as common as diabetes or asthma. I don’t know about you, but I learned about diabetes and asthma in primary school. Right around the time I learned about periods. Yet like most people, I had never even heard of endometriosis. That is, until I began researching my own mystery symptoms and started to suspect that I might actually have it. Whatever the heck it was. And if you’re anything like me, once you are diagnosed, things only become more confusing. No one knows the cause. No one knows the cure. No two endo situations are alike, but the prognosis generally seems pretty negative. So what’s a girl to do when information overwhelm sets in and it feels like there’s not a single clear answer to be found? Read More


My Plan to Heal Endo Naturally

IMG_2596Once you are on the other side of laparoscopic surgery (or perhaps even before then), two things quickly become apparent: 1) endo usually grows back 2) there is no conclusive, scientifically proven way to stop it. Most doctors recommend immediately going on (or continuing) hormonal birth control to attempt to suppress the endo from growing back too rapidly. From what I can gather after a tonne of research and talking to a lot of women, with endo there are no guarantees, with or without birth control. Personally, I have not had positive experiences on birth control (from endless bleeding to constant vomiting to depression). So after a lot of research and a lot of soul searching, I made the decision not to take it. No judgement for anyone that chooses that path, it just isn’t right for me – at least not right now. However, I knew if I wasn’t going down that path, I had to take other big actions, so I have committed myself to a natural alternative protocol. Read More